Why do I document?
Well, the documenting bit is because well, am a bit anal like that. I also feel that this time this has got to be for real. This time I have to get my life together, take my life back and really live almost as if for the first time. Since I am working on every other aspect of my life, the weight is just a portion of it. And, all y’all nosey folks don’t need to know the small details of all the other drama. 
I’ve been searching the web looking at some personal weight loss sites and some of the sites and the stories they tell are so tear jerking! I found them very inspiring, but I didn’t find the joys of weight loss other than the after pictures. The small joys were left out. Like the fact that I discovered that celery and fat free Italian dressing was virtually no calories! 
This might work after all! And, like the fact that I drank my water with lunch like I am supposed to. The small joys! The joys that will take me from day to day instead of looking at the big picture. I’m not always a very optimistic person, so I have to set several very small goals in order to keep me going. I mean think about it. If you looked at the fact that I still have over 300 pounds to lose, I would give up before I even got started. But, since I look at it as, “Can I drink at least one 20 oz bottle of water today?” and I actually DO it? The pride of doing that one little thing will keep me going to try to get to the big one of losing all the weight. This may or may not work for you. But at least try it. This way, I will feel the feeling of success at least several times a day. Wouldn’t that feel good? Let me tell you, it does! If I could just live by the motto “one bite at a time”. It will work!
Anyway, of course the websites I love the best are the ones of people who have lost the kind of amounts of weight that I am looking to loose, or who are faced with the same kind of task that lays ahead of me.
So I kind of figured that maybe having my own web page would inspire and motivate me even further. And if anyone else happens to ever come across this site and feel inspired or motivated by my story, or in any way moved, then that would just be fantastic and a huge bonus.
The great thing about this site is that to me, it kind of takes the place of the whole weigh-in. You know, letting the scales fess up how you’ve been going all week. So that is how I’m going to think about this site. Knowing that I’m gonna have to fess up on here will (hopefully 
) keep me on point!
I don’t really have a problem publishing that sort of stuff on here though because for a start I don’t yet know if anyone other than me is ever going to look at this stuff, and secondly, it’s a kind of therapy to be able to be really honest and tell the whole story. My weight is one of the major hurdles of my life. As such, there is a hell of a lot to tell.
Thanks for listening! And please help me achieve my dream in living for a very long time! 
Talk to me people!