I cleaned out my storage unit because it was just an extra bill that didn’t need to be paid after we got the bed out of it.  Now, I have sooooooo much to go through.  Now, I have to go through every box to see what I need to keep and what I can give to charity.  And, it’s a LOT!  Someone come and help a sista out!  The door will be open for ya!

Until later….

I’m still here…..I’ve been writing them, but I just have to post them…..I will do it when I get up…..see you then!

Ok, so here’s the deal…..I went to K-Mart tonight. I was STARVING!!!!  Wrong thing to do! I was looking for something to eat while I was there. I went down the potato chip aisle. WRONG IDEA #2! But, it was funny because I was talking myself out of every bad decision I made. That worked! I ended up just getting some pistachios and calling it a day.

Ok, so I left K-Mart. I started eating the pistachios. I LOOOOOOOOOOVE ME SOME ‘TACHIOS! I ate half the bag. It was not a big bag, so I was still ok. Anyway, I THOUGHT I was still hungry. So, I said to myself…I said…”Self, we have not had a “free” day in a while, so let’s get something naughty!” I did. I went by Popeye’s and got 10 whole wings. Now, keep in mind that those wings come with a biscuit for EACH!! That means that I had 10 Popeye’s biscuits. Now, I could NOT go to Popeye’s without getting some Cajun mashed potatoes and gravy. Who does that?!!!!!!! So, I got a small one. And, on top of that…I got a small order of onion rings….there were 6 rings. So, I had 10 wings, 10 biscuits, a small mashed potato and gravy and 6 onion rings sitting in front of me….and keep in mind that I JUST had a half of bag of ’stachios! And, a half of a bag of ’stachios is 1 1/2 cups (with the shell on). So, that was a LOT!!! Now, it was no where near what I used to binge on…..let’s break this down……

Old binge
2 Filet ‘o Fish (with extra tarter sauce) – 800 calories
1 Super Size Fry – 570 calories
20 Nuggets – 420 calories
4 Sweet & Sour dipping sauce – 200 calories
1 Double cheeseburger – 440 calories
1 Super Size Orange drink – 350 calories
1 Oreo McFlurry with extra oreos – 580 calories

And, yes….I used to sit and eat all of that in ONE sitting! That’s 3360 calories for ONE meal!!!!  And, don’t let me have a bad day….I’d go and get that 2 more times! Needless to say, I had stock in McDonalds! But, the thing was…it worked! It made me stop feeling….it made me pass out….it made me forget why I was hurting so bad. So, it worked for me….that was my payoff.

But, here was my new “binge”
10 whole wings (that I could not eat at one time) – 700 calories
4 biscuits (that I could not eat at one time and I threw the others away) 950 calories
1 small mashed potatoes and gravy – 130 calories
1 small onion rings – 310 calories
1 1/2 c. of pistachios – 700 calories (but the good kind)

That’s what…..2790 calories? Now, that was not technically not a binge meal….not because it was not a lot of food/calories…but I consider my binges to be “because of pain”. I was not feeling pain. I just let myself get too hungry and then I pigged out because of it. I honestly would not have even tried to eat it if I was not that hungry.

But, here’s the thing….I tried to eat it all in one sitting. I TRIED!!!! But, it did not work. I ate the ’stachios, onion rings, ‘taters and gravy, 2 biscuits and 4 wings over a 1 1/2 hour period…and I was STUFFED!!!! I mean….STUFFED!!!!!! I mean MISERABLE!!!!!!! I could not move…and the bad part is…it was not good. I mean the pistachios were good…as usual…and the mashed potatoes were good….as usual….but the other stuff was just….eh!!! I could have stopped eating it when I first started, but then my “gotta finish what’s on my plate” bullshit kicked in and I just had to finish it…..or at least try my hardest! Over the next 5 hours….I ate the other 6 wings, 2 biscuits and the other 1 1/2 cup of ’stachios. I just HAD to finish them! Or, at least that’s what I told myself at that time. So, I did.

I woke up the next morning like “Why did you even do that?!!! It wasn’t good…..you don’t feel good….your stomach is cramping….and to top it off…now you’re out that money that could have went to something else!” So, needless to say, I won’t be doing that again any time soon!

Moral of the story…..don’t waste time, effort, feelings, energy…and most of all MONEY that will, literally, be in the toilet the next day! Save yourself a step and just flush the money down the toilet!  See how you feel then! 

Until later….

I just wanted to share a few pics of Saturday….you can see them all on the site, here. But, these were of me and I thought they were cute….so I thought I’d share! 

I met this cutie pie that night….he was so funny!  He’s the other promoter that was there having a party the same night.  He had me cracking up!  He had me soooooo tight on this picture….I couldn’t do anything but laugh!

Now this one was soooo funny!  He had me crying laughing. We started talking junk to each other from jump.  We acted like we wanted to fight!  I was ready! He is such a cutie!  You can tell by my eye how tight he was on me!

This is Donte!  He is such a sweetie and can dance his ASS off!  Good lawd hammercy he can dance!  I had not seen him in sooooo long.  It was really good to see him.  And, might I add….I loooove that picture of me!

Until later….

Everyone should know by now that I have The Club 249.  If you don’t know what it is by now…..FOR SHAME!!!!!  Check out the “what I do” page and you’ll see.  Anyway, the party went really good!  The dance floor pretty much stayed packed.   And, that’s always a good sign.  The only thing is….time seemed to stand still.  It didn’t end until 3am and I swore it was at least 12 midnight, and when I asked someone what time it was….they said, “10:46″!  I was like !  I kept asking people what time it was because I just KNEW that they were lying to me.    I was so tired and ready for it to be over.  It’s not that I don’t like doing them, because I looooooooooooooooove doing them.  It’s just that for some reason…..I was soooooooo tired that night and I was ready to go home.  But, when it was finally over, one of my people had a bit of a fender bender and you know I couldn’t just leave her there.  So, we stayed there until everything was done…..(which was about 4am).  Then we went out to eat breakfast at IHOP.  mmmmmmmmmmmmmm IHOP!  I then dropped off my photographer and I FINALLY brought my tail home and got in the damn bed!!!!!!  I LOVE the people that come out to have fun…and I looooooooooooove giving the parties….but next time…..I’ve GOT to get a LOT of sleep the night before! 

Until later….

Ahem…’cuse me!!  Did you notice my weight loss page?!!  YOU GOT IT -9!!!!!  Yep, ya girl lost 9 pounds this week and is OFFICIALLY out of the 450s!!!  It took FOREVER!!!!!  But I kicked that plateau’s ass!!!!!! 

Can you tell I’m happy?!!!  

Where you just wanna crawl up in a ball and just cry yourself to sleep?  Yeah…that’s how mine is today.

Let me tell you about my day yesterday.   First, I went to bed at midnight.  I have not been to bed that early in a long time!  But, I had been up for 36 friggen hours!!!  Let me tell you why.  Ok….for a while I was hurt from my job and on workman’s comp for a while.  Well, when I was ready to go back to work, they were laying people off left and right and therefore….I could not go back to work.  So, I’ve been off for a few months and now, a sista was HURTING for money!  So, I had to rob Peter to pay Paul.  So, one of the things that I had to let slide was my electricity.  So, yesterday…I called to make arrangements to pay it.  They were like….”Oh no sista….yo stuff is going to be cut off tomorrow!” I was like, “Oh hell naw!”  So, I asked Beezie to put them in his name for me.  Well, we had to do a lease and everything in his name.  So, in doing that….we had to take it to the power company.  When we did, this little smart heffa called the apartment complex to verify it.  Needless to say it did not work.  So, then I had to figure out how to get a LOT of money….REALLY QUICK!  I had to laugh at myself because I used to be a big crook, but I have not done any wrong in years…and here I was again trying to scheme and God was like….”Um….no-no baby girl!  That ain’t happening!”  I just laughed and said, “Ok, I gotcha!”  So then, I had to get it together and get the money up.  I was running around crazy for hours.  But, needless to say, I got it done.  Then, when the adrenaline stopped flowing…..I crashed….and I crashed HARD!!!!! Right before I went to sleep, I realized that I had just been grazing throughout the day.   So, I had to eat.  Then I realized I had not taken my blood pressure medication, omega 3 pills, or my vitamin. So, I had to get up and do all of that.  I did, then I laid down and called the power company to make sure they received the payment and that I would wake up with lights!  So, when I called them…they know my Sasha name.  So, anyway, she said….wait….Sasha….Sasha….that name sounds so familiar.  She knew me from the big girl parties that I throw.  It was soooooooooooo hilarious!  We talked about that instead of the bill.  After all was said and done, I laid down and I looked up again and smiled and told Him….you know after all of that…it was crazy…but now that it’s done…..I did it legitimately…I got it done….and as a little treat….He let me see that we are growing because people are saying they know about the parties already!   How major is that?!!!!! All’s well that ends well!

If you have Lose it! for the iTouch or iPhone, add me….my email is Mikki@WorldOfMikki.com.  The fun part is 2 of my sisters are on it and we are watching each other and keep each other accountable.  It’s cool to text little “that a girls” to them and talk about it.  We are trying to get our other sister on there, but she doesn’t have an iPhone or iTouch……but we’ll see about adding her in online…if that’s possible.

But, I’m really liking that I’m doing it with my sisters!

Something else crazy happened to me a few minutes ago.  I was watching Intervention and something came to me about my journey.  I don’t know how or why it came to me, but it did.   I know it was God’s whisper, so I’ve got to listen to it.  I was just sitting here watching it and all of a sudden, it was like I heard my mother’s phone ringing…I saw her answer it….I heard someone tell her.   “Ms. Jackson, this is the police and I’m so sorry to tell you, but we found your daughter Mikki in her apartment.  She passed away today.  There was no foul play, but we just don’t know what happened yet.  Please come down here to claim the body.”   I then saw my mother drop the phone and break down.  It was crystal clear.  It was like it was happening.  I don’t know if I dozed off or not, and it was in the form of a dream….or what….I don’t know how to explain it.  I would NEVER kill one of my sisters….so why am I slowly killing my mother’s other daughter?!!!!!  I can’t!!!!!    I won’t!!!   I’ve GOT to make this happen!!!!  I WILL BECOME HEALTHY!!!!!   THIS WILL NOT BEAT ME!!!!!!

It was rough…I’m trying to cut down the calories and switch it up a bit because I’m on a plateau from hell!  So, at least for a couple of weeks, I need to ramp things up.  So, that’s what I’m doing.  But, good LAWD this is hard today.  I don’t know why, but my eating is soooooo hard.  But, I will see how it goes……pray for me y’all!

Do yourself a favor today…..take a sexy pic.  No one else has to see it…..it doesn’t have to explicit….just sexy.  Take it yourself….either with a webcam or a self timing camera…..just take one.  Even if you don’t feel it right now….you’ll feel sexy and good about yourself.  No matter how big….how little….or how you look….just take one.  You might not even like it after you take it….but keep it.  You can even keep it in a safe place where no one else will ever see it but you!  But, take it….you will be surprised how good you feel….even if it’s later on.  Just love you “some you” today! 

Here’s mine…it’s not new…but I LOVE this picture…even in it’s imperfections!

You might not like it….but I DO!!!  And, THAT’S all that matters! 

Awwwwwww crap y’all done let a sista get a new toy!!! Lol I am posting this from my new toy….my iPod touch shawty!!!! Lol Only bad thing is that I can’t use my smilies. :( But the wonderful thing is….I can post on the go!!!!!!! Yeah baby!!!! Lol

Ok …..I’ll be back!

I’m still doing good!  I’m still following my plan….even started working out more…..but too much stuff is going on!  And, to top it off, my damn cycle came back!  And, so did the cramps.  Needless to say, I’ve been in the bed for a couple of days…..I took Aleve for it, but with the high blood pressure, I don’t like taking too much of anything. 

And, today….I have so much running around to do, I just hope it chills out.  I’ve got to get up and get ready for my meeting, so I will catch up later on tonight when I settle down.  I’ve been writing them, so I’ll put them up here, so you’re going to have to catch up with me.  I need to feel better, so here’s my attempt so far…… 

Look at what I got….they had a good sale on blueberries.

Yeah…yeah….I know….I over did it again.  But hey….now I have 64 servings of blueberries….enough to last me a little over 2 months!  I’m ready now!  

They had cherries on sale too…

After….what would have been 3 servings is now 13!

I know…..I know….it’s too much, but hell…..you know I can’t pass up a sale like that! 

Until later…